Thursday, January 01, 2009
i decided to give up foil.
ill try and take sabre for the next 2 mths. then im going to US in march, continue sabre from there.
bye singapore!
imnothingtoyou.
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Friday, September 05, 2008
i decided that last sunday was one of two critical points of my fencing stint. Fencing has gone downslope ever since i enlisted. i couldnt keep up with my peers anymore. There is no place for me to have instruction, and no friendly partners to spar with anymore. I gave myself 2 chances to see if i was still up for fencing, and last sunday, i failed the first.
the competition was fairly easy, i won my way up to the finals quite easy. But, i wasnt fencing up to standard and had a shitty score even though i won all by bouts. the first and last direct elminations had be win at 11-15. With my opponents standards, i should have been winning 5-15................................................ by my own definition, i have already failed. I went on to lose to another guy at 6-15. that was the most horrid and embarassing bout in my whole fencing career.
It was the first time i ever lost my balance in the bout, i fell like ........ 3 times!? i never fall down one lor. IT WAS DAMN UNGLAM. it was the first time my body retreated faster than my legs, so its like my body leaning back but my legs are still in front. SIGH.
My attacks all failed. my friends were watching. i lost point by point by point.
After the event i went to james and ask him if i could go for novices. he hesistated for a while, and he said i could. but i knew he was quite reluctant. Amongst my peers, im the only one to yet get a medal at novices, and thus am the only one to qualify among the more senior fencers. I definitely can lead the younger ones in a team event, but i know he wont be asking me to do it.
so i dont know what to do now, should i switch to epee/sabre, or just quit fencing entirely.
Alternatively, i could join another club and fence with them, i really want to take part in individual and team event in novices 09. But the problem is i dont know any fencers externally. sigh. if you're reading this and you're a fencer at another club, ASK ME TO JOIN!
imnothingtoyou.
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Saturday, February 16, 2008
i lost my temper almost once every day since last sunday.
monday: i went to ms lim after much comtemplation because i really need to get my work done and i dont want to trouble my branch mates into doing it for me. i need to hand over 2 SIC documents and requires ms lim to sign for it. i put my pride aside for a while and went into comd office to look for her.
ms lim: "WHAT?! now you want me to sign for it? so does that mean when i return to you, i have to OPEN a book just for you to sign for it too?!"
then she dials mr loo and whatever shit she said, she rudely chucks me to mr loo.
I took one step back, she steps right up delivers a punch to your face.
tuesday: I misplaced both my isac card in s1br. Im 100% sure it is there but XXX's just behaving indifferent. and i was so sure XXX had last touch. I flipped the whole place upside down. Searched cac and at the same time finally cant stand how messy everywhere is (been tolerating the messiness), ended up throwing everything unnecessary that was in my sight.
so it was kinda an 2-in-1 temper flare.
was very very very very grateful tay stood out and helped and that kind of stopped my frenzy.
wednesday: I was buying toast for mdm lai. she wanted plain kaya. Auntie made kaya with butter. OKAY relax jasper relax. BSM pa came and wanted to buy 2 kaya with butter, and wanted my help cos he cant speak mandarin. \
me: auntie I want one kaya with butter, one with kaya only.
auntie: one kaya with butter, one with butter without kaya.
me: no one with kaya and butter, one with kaya, but dont want butter
*Several exchanges of similar sentences took place with different permutation and she finally got it right*
auntie: so one kaya with butter, one with kaya lah!
me: YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
in the end she made one with butter only, and one with kaya only.
and you could guess what happen. i spend another 5 minutes screaming at her trying to let her understand.
auntie: I have been selling toast 30 years and this is how i always make toast.
thursday: it was the most fun day. nothing happened. in fact it was quite pleasant cos mdm lai bought breakfast for all of us! but actually something happened that i dont want to write here, and it made me a bit quite displeased.
friday: the whole despatch experience was horrible. like 15 handphone calls to my phone in just ONE MORNING. like how fcking stressfull. mdm lai calls. 3SG guy calls. dad calls. branch calls (with a few no sound). me calling my mom. mdm lai smses. AND A WHOLE LOT LAR.
not to mention dealing with the driver so the whole thing will go according as plan to reach camp before 1.30pm.
today: this fcking uncle at the tools shop almost broke my $400 foil by trying to use a spanner to twist the base of the blade. i was showing him the nut at the grip!!!!!!!!!!!!! okay im too sian now to type the whole thing i shall summarise. he touched the blade with his hands. it'll make the whole thing rust. he sold me the wrong screwdriver. went home and have to face a crappy father. WTWTWFWTF.
im not being over-reactive, i think im not being petty neither. this cases justifies for a considerable amount of anger and i think bottling up just isnt too fair for myself.
imnothingtoyou.
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Saturday, September 29, 2007
woo. i finished my driving course!!!!!!!! (#JHQ)TUQ)UTQ#)TUQ#) such joy.
im gonna miss the nice roti prata auntie who started to recognise me after i bought roti prata from her for the 3rd consequetive day. then one day i didnt carry with me small change and she actually let me owe the money. WHAT TRUST. i mean okay lar, $1.20, but still.
and my trainer whos super fierce but sometimes he's just acts like a nice grandpa.
after the course, i came to realise that how your driving style is solely dependent on how your trainer taught you. and you are going to carry it with you for the rest of your life. for me, i had a trianer reputated to CHIONG AR! and 'da you' (step oil) all the way. so thats pretty much what i do all the time. then when other trainers took me for driving they almost all started with 'eh im not your trainer leh, dont drive so fast leh!' hahahah pretty funny lar.
hello jason if you are reading this, I HOPE YOU'RE STILL ALIVE.
imnothingtoyou.
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Saturday, September 01, 2007
byebye team singapore.
2 years will cause someone to lose a lot of opportunities, smash a lot of dreams, rip a lot of plans, ruin a lot of lives.
its not any other 2 years. its 2 years of peak performance, 2 years of prime years.
many attempts to revert the current situation have been attempted, and failed. now, my best chance has come. its REALLY REALLY now or never. but still, lots of uncertainty and factors which i have no influence over.
on the optimistic side, im halfway there, and probably carry a higher success rate than ANY of my counterparts.
god have mercy, be on my side, bring me through these dark times. amen.
imnothingtoyou.
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Tuesday, June 19, 2007
sian. these few days been worrying about my posting. especially the quota for that unit's only 13.
have been thinking about guards too. can you imagine me in a khaki beret. do i look that garang to you. i wonder if i really get posted there, can i endure all the training and eventually graduate from there. HMMMMMMMMMMMM. and theres this little TINY WINY part of me that really want to do it. LOL.
guards assault course:
run run run,
FBO clear SOC,
run run run,
stop for range shooting,
CASUALTY!
carry man on stretcher run for 4km
clear SOC backwards with casualty
for now, everyone please pray for me to get into that slacker unit of 13 intake.
imnothingtoyou.
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Wednesday, June 13, 2007
POP LOH!
hopefully i can say byebye to infantry! and say hello to band! then i can wear comfortable no.3 to camp. sing bookout song everyday! cos band's 8 to 5 and can go home everyday!
ytd mom and i was queuing for ferry back to mainland then she saw one of her ns boys who's a lieutenant. so she was talking to him and intro-ing him to me. so HE WAVED and said hello to me FIRST. hAHAHAHAHA. a two-bar greet a recruit first. LOLLLLLLLLL.
its really useful to have a mom in the SAF. especially when you yourself is serving ns. you can pull strings everywhere. LOLllllllllllllllllll!
HELLO HWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
now at home also nothing to do lar. but anything beats having to be in camp. ARMY LIFE SUCKSssssssssSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSssssss. anybody want to go out sms me leh. oh yar class gathering this sat! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.
fencing later! im happy! :D
imnothingtoyou.
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